Review: Ten Steps to Nanette by Hannah Gadsby (read by the author)

If you’re familiar with Hannah Gadsby’s body of work, in particular her show Nanette, then you have a good idea what the tone of this book is. This memoir is cleverly structured, taking your through Hannah Gadsby’s childhood, teen years, days at uni, her early career, and the big life changes that brought her to writing her shows Nanette and Douglas. If you’ve seen those shows, the material is familiar, but it’s written in such a touching and thoughtful way and with new details that even knowing they outline of the story, I couldn’t turn this off.

Additionally, the book spends a fair amount of time walking through what it was like growing up in Tasmania in the 90s, when homosexuality was illegal there. I can’t help but think how important this story is in a time when the lives of trans kids are constantly debated. Gadsby has given us the gift of her story and insight into the very personal consequences for the people under debate.

This was a really touching and wonderful memoir and I recommend it. But keep a box of tissues nearby. This book made me openly weep.

Unhauling: Finding my next read

One of the hacks I mentioned in my previous post was to read the first page or so and see what grabs me. I don’t really have a pile of ‘what to read next’, but as I went through my shelves I started pulling one or two from the book cases. I added these to pile near my bed (one of a few). I thought if I narrowed it down to 6-7, that should make it easier to find where I want to head next.

I’ve got one non-fiction in the stack, a memoir of living in the Netherlands. I’ve got some booktok recs, Ice Planet Barbarians and The Queer Principles of Kit Webb. One historical romance (Mine till Midnight), one that’s maybe about demons and evil kings (Carnival of Souls), one about the West and riding horses and doing jobs stealing stuff (The Sisters Brothers) and one that’s maybe about vampires (The Beautiful)? (It is tough to say from the first page, so some of these are guesses. ) Part of me is leaning towards Kit Webb, as it is Pride Month, and part of me is leaning towards the second installment of Ice Planet Barbarians.

I think I’ve had the Sisters Brothers longest, but Mine til Midnight is the oldest. This was supposed to make it easier, having an actual TBR pile, but I don’t think it is.

What would you read next? How do structure your TBR pile? Sound off in the comments!

Review: I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy (read by the author)

I vaguely knew who Jennette McCurdy was thanks to years of stocking magazine’s working for B&N. I knew she was on some Nickelodeon show but I was passed the Nickelodeon phrase in my life. I have nothing but good things about her memoir but the more I learned about her life, I wasn’t sure I wanted to read it. I decided to to listen to the audio book. I find listening to memoirs more enjoyable. Listening to her story was rage inducing. I knew that her mother was abusive from the press tour and as an adult who knows the signs of abuse I could see it but Jennette as a child who obviously in love her mother, did not see it that way. She didn’t know any better because for her this was just how things were. Knowing what we now know went on behind the scenes of Nickelodeon shows at the time, I couldn’t help to be angry. All the adults in her life and not a single one of them stepped in to help her. She spiraled out of control but because she was making a lot of people money, they just let her spiral. Infuriating I am happy that she is now in a better place and can see what her mother did and was and find support that she needs to be healthy. To step away from acting, even though it was never what she wanted to do in the first place, takes a strong person. It may not have been we career of choice but it made her a lot of money and leaving acting meant leaving a lot of money on the table. I do appreciate Jennette’s matter of fact way of telling her story. She doesn’t try to paint rosy pictures of her childhood, eating disorders or alcoholism. She talked about all of it in plain terms. She didn’t apologize for how she coped with things or try to excuse her behavior nor did she ever our right made her mom the villain. She told her story Told her truth and has moved on Very healthy of her.

Review: The Woman in Me by Britney Spears

This was heartbreaking to listen too. I don’t normally do audiobooks but I was kind of intrigued by Michelle Williams narration. She’s good. I think it’s a testament to her performance and the writing itself that I forgot it wasn’t Britney herself reading it. I am only a year younger than Britney. We are both December birthdays. I remember watching her on the Mickey Mouse Club and when she debuted with Baby One More Time and the controversy of the music video and then the Rolling Stone Magazine cover story. I read all about relationship with Justin and was all in on Justin when they broke up. I am not proud of what I said about her out loud to friends. The early 2000’s were not kind to young women and Britney bared most of the brunt. Over the years I have grown fond of her. We as a society really failed her and there is no amount of apologies we can say will make it up to her.

The Woman in Me, Britney spends most of her time talking about the conservatorship and let me say, her family can go to hell for all I care. How they can do that to their own daughter and say it’s for their own good is beyond me. Then again, we all went along with it. I remember all those People and US Weekly articles about what a great father Jaime Spears was and just look how much better she is. It’s kind of sick how we value women’s freedoms but then again, half of the states are currently outlawing abortions so it’s not that much of a stretch. She begins by telling us about her family history. Her Grandmother was also hospitalized to a mental institution and would later take her own life. Her Grandfather would also institutionalized as well. So it shouldn’t be that much of a surprise that her father thought what he did to Britney was okay and for her own good. She gives us a glimpse of her childhood that fluctuated between her family doing well and barely getting by. Her father was an alcoholic would disappear for times and her mother would yell. Not the healthiest of family life She talks about her time on the Mickey Mouse club, getting signed and touring. Falling in love with Justin and outcome of their break up. Her marrying Kevin and the post partum depression, the paparazzi and the media scrutiny and how all of this lead to her public break down that led to her conservatorship. The heartbreaking reason she went along with it was because it was only way she would see her sons. How awful that they used her own kids to keep in her line.

It would be easy for Britney and well into her rights to really tear them all a new one but she actually shows them some compassion. She doesn’t let them off the hook by any means. She doesn’t hold back but she also understands that they have their issues too. I will say, it will be hard for me to listen to anything from Justin Timberlake again. I don’t want to say that his career is over but a comeback is going to be hard for him after her revelations. He made millions off making the world believe that she cheated on him and broke his heart. Let’s just say his song “What Comes Around” was more prophetic then he probably thought.

I honestly don’t think you have to a fan of Britney or even familiar with her story to get something out of this book. It’s an inspiring in a way. She has been through so much and yet she is still here. She still sees the good in the world and is finally living her life the way she want’s to live it. I hope we can all learn from her experiences and not judge women so harshly. To give people compassion because you never know what they are going through. And really, we all should be in therapy because we all have been through trauma in the last couple of years,

Review: Not My Father’s Son by Alan Cumming

Not My Father’s Son by Alan Cumming

This memoir is about a time in Alan Cumming’s life when he was learning about his mother’s father for an ancestry tv show and reckoning with his own father and abuse he suffered as a child. In the tale, he is confronted with the possibility that he may not be the son of the man who had raised him. It is upsetting. And it is also very, very touching and a little bit heartwarming and funny. The audio book is read by Cumming, which is excellent. The book is structured in sections and it goes from “Then” stories when he is talking about his childhood and early adulthood and “Now” sections, where he is talking about the present and preparing for the ancestry TV show. I liked the going back and forth. This was a thoughtful and poignant read and I am so glad I finally got to it.